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“Apparently I did not cry when I was born” by Mira Kinebuchi

Apparently I did not cry when I was born.

Straight up just stared at my dad

Half his DNA baring his soul

I probably looked at him like I’ve seen shit you don’t even know

Or perhaps I looked at him like I heard you on laughing gas, you weren’t even the one in labor

Who knows what I was thinking in my edamame head

Regardless, I entered this world with my fists clenched

Tightly.

 

As I grew up, it continued that way

People demanding expression out of me, expression that made sense

Happiness simplified, anger and sadness sealed away

It was all kept within me.

Maybe that is why people would share their stories with me

Like blank paper, I let them write their narrative

So much so that they’d try to write mine too.

I found myself crying

only in the quietness of my room

But only for a few minutes.

A few minutes and then you’re done

Any more and you have lost

The person you were born to be.

 

These days though,

I find myself tearing up at grandma crossing the street or

An extra chicken nugget in my 10 piece box.

I cry listening to “Lucky” by Britney Spears

And my heart squeezes rewatching One Piece.

 

You’ve gotten soft, Mira

Stop that.

 

But I do not stop.

I laugh while crying, I tear up in my anger.

I am messy and unafraid,

Confused but alive.

 

And I hear my Obaachan’s words

What she gave to me 

when all I could offer at the time

was brokenness.

 

Gaman shinakute iino

You can let go

You do not have to hold it in.

Unclench your fist, relax your grip

You were born in this world to be loved.

 

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Our name is poking fun at the stereotype that all Asians are overachievers, especially Asian women, non-binary people, and other gender minorities. It’s also in recognition of all of us who have had no choice but to be overachievers: managing societal expectations, family obligations, and educational opportunities, all while fighting the patriarchy.

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